Hey little girl. Yeah you, with the cute red curls – I’m talking to you.
I bet you never thought your life was going to turn out like this, did you?
In a million years you never imagined that you would turn out to be an alcoholic with mental illness. Sound scary? It is. I’m not trying to scare you on purpose, but I want to be honest with you because growing up you believed in a lot of things that weren’t real. Like thinking there is some sort of universal appeal to justice in the world when the reality is, life is often not fair and you just have to deal with it. Bad shit happens to a lot of people and there’s really no reason for it. And a lot of bad shit is going to happen to you.
I bet you never thought you would develop a taste for hard liquor to try and numb your depression. Well, you did and you nearly got yourself killed more than once. You must have an amazing guardian angel because lucky you, you survived.
Hey little girl, I bet you never imagined you would end up in a psychiatric hospital. Well, you did. You scared the shit out of not only yourself but your family too. Your mental illness is strong and will take control of your life in a way you never imagined was possible. It will very nearly destroy your happiness and sense of security in this world.
You probably never imagined that at 37 years old, you would have no job, no friends, no husband and no kids. Even though you always wanted to start your own family, the truth is you’re probably never going to have any children.
Does that sound depressing little girl? Well surprise, you have depression. I can depress the shit out of you if you let me.
But it’s not all bad, little girl. You’re an incredibly honest person – and in this world, that takes guts. You know how to speak the truth and you do it regardless of the outcome. That’s brave of you, and not everyone does that.
You somehow find the strength to quit drinking. After ten years of hardcore boozing, you finally stop for good. Not everyone can do that.
Finally, the life that’s ahead of you is arduous but you’re strong. Life will throw you a bunch of shit, but you’re able to persist despite all of it. You have a strength inside you that will protect you no matter the circumstance.
Little girl, you’re a survivor. Be proud of that.